I discovered this song recently and I really love it. As usual, it's the lyrics that I love and relate to. I decided to breakdown the song and say why I relate to the lyrics. I've posted the lyrics as well as my thoughts in parenthesis afterwards. I've also included a lyric video if you want to hear the song.
I'm Alive!
By Becca
Nothing I say comes out right
(I often feel misunderstood. Even when I've tried really hard to convey my thoughts accurately, I'm still afraid I've come across wrong.)
I can't love without a fight
(I find it difficult to trust and I don't easily fall in love.)
No one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
(I often don't feel like my prayers are answered but I keep on praying.)
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothing's moving in my mind
(I feel stifled by my thoughts sometimes. Still, I can't seem to overcome and move pass certain thoughts and thought processes and this is frustrating.)
Inspiration can't be found
(Despite the fact that I long to create, I'm often uninspired.)
I get up and fall but...
(At times this happens a couple times a day.)
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
(The above two lines pretty much sum it up for me. I so long to be a really 'good' person. The term; reaching to heaven, symbolizes that for me. But unlike some people I know, I'm always falling short of what I think I'm capable of and end up in-between 'good' and 'bad'.)
I will fight
(I'm a fighter and will keep trying!)
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm ALIVE!
Every lover breaks my heart
And I know it from the start
(Part of knowing someone will break my heart from the start is being pessimistic at times and knowing that I am a very sensitive person. Even people I know love me can kind of break my heart a little at times.)
Still I end up in a mess
Every time I second Guess
(When I second guess my instincts, it usually creates a mess.)
All my friend's just run away
When I'm having a bad day
(Sad, but quite often true.)
I would rather stay in bed
But I know there's a reason...
(When I'm depressed I just want to lay in bed but I have to remember that there is a reason I'm alive and fight to keep going.)
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm ALIVE!
When I'm bored to death at home
When he won't pick up the phone
(I don't like spending a lot of time home alone. Sometimes I get bored but mostly just lonely. During times like that it is difficult when I reach out but people don't respond. But I still have to keep reminding myself that there is a reason I'm alive.)
When I'm stuck in second place
(I often feel second place or not important.)
Those regrets I can't erase
(Too many regrets.)
Only I can change the end
Of the movie in my head
There's no time for misery
I won't feel sorry for me
(I really don't want to sit around and feel sorry for myself. I'd rather, when I have the strength, do something to improve things.)
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, ohh!
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, my hard life,
I live, my life
I'm ALIVE!
Even though this song expresses thoughts on negative things, to me, it still has a positive/encouraging message. The message to me is there is always a reason to keep living. Life is a gift and something to be grateful for. When I hear this song, I can't help but feel a little uplifted by it.
