I discovered this song recently and I really love it. As usual, it's the lyrics that I love and relate to. I decided to breakdown the song and say why I relate to the lyrics. I've posted the lyrics as well as my thoughts in parenthesis afterwards. I've also included a lyric video if you want to hear the song.
I'm Alive!
By Becca
Nothing I say comes out right
(I often feel misunderstood. Even when I've tried really hard to convey my thoughts accurately, I'm still afraid I've come across wrong.)
I can't love without a fight
(I find it difficult to trust and I don't easily fall in love.)
No one ever knows my name
When I pray for sun, it rains
(I often don't feel like my prayers are answered but I keep on praying.)
I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothing's moving in my mind
(I feel stifled by my thoughts sometimes. Still, I can't seem to overcome and move pass certain thoughts and thought processes and this is frustrating.)
Inspiration can't be found
(Despite the fact that I long to create, I'm often uninspired.)
I get up and fall but...
(At times this happens a couple times a day.)
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
(The above two lines pretty much sum it up for me. I so long to be a really 'good' person. The term; reaching to heaven, symbolizes that for me. But unlike some people I know, I'm always falling short of what I think I'm capable of and end up in-between 'good' and 'bad'.)
I will fight
(I'm a fighter and will keep trying!)
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm ALIVE!
Every lover breaks my heart
And I know it from the start
(Part of knowing someone will break my heart from the start is being pessimistic at times and knowing that I am a very sensitive person. Even people I know love me can kind of break my heart a little at times.)
Still I end up in a mess
Every time I second Guess
(When I second guess my instincts, it usually creates a mess.)
All my friend's just run away
When I'm having a bad day
(Sad, but quite often true.)
I would rather stay in bed
But I know there's a reason...
(When I'm depressed I just want to lay in bed but I have to remember that there is a reason I'm alive and fight to keep going.)
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, I'm ALIVE!
When I'm bored to death at home
When he won't pick up the phone
(I don't like spending a lot of time home alone. Sometimes I get bored but mostly just lonely. During times like that it is difficult when I reach out but people don't respond. But I still have to keep reminding myself that there is a reason I'm alive.)
When I'm stuck in second place
(I often feel second place or not important.)
Those regrets I can't erase
(Too many regrets.)
Only I can change the end
Of the movie in my head
There's no time for misery
I won't feel sorry for me
(I really don't want to sit around and feel sorry for myself. I'd rather, when I have the strength, do something to improve things.)
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, My life, ohh!
[CHORUS]
I'm ALIVE!
I'm ALIVE! Oh, yeah
Between the good and bad's where you'll find me
Reaching for heaven
I will fight
And I'll sleep when I die
I live, my hard life,
I live, my life
I'm ALIVE!
Even though this song expresses thoughts on negative things, to me, it still has a positive/encouraging message. The message to me is there is always a reason to keep living. Life is a gift and something to be grateful for. When I hear this song, I can't help but feel a little uplifted by it.
That really is an encouraging message. And I find what you did really inspiring in a creative way. We all hear songs that stir feelings inside us, I mean whose never teared up or laughed out loud while listening to certain music? But I love how you took the time to write out exactly why this song makes you feel that way. That took courage and I think it's a good example of how to express your feelings in a way that's easy to identify with. It'd be cool to see more posts like this if you feel like it. Or at least more songs that you like. Hang in there sis, love you.
ReplyDelete"(The above two lines pretty much sum it up for me. I so long to be a really 'good' person. The term; reaching to heaven, symbolizes that for me. But unlike some people I know, I'm always falling short of what I think I'm capable of and end up in-between 'good' and 'bad'.)"
ReplyDeleteFor what it's worth, I tend to think even the people that don't seem to be falling short still fall in-between good and bad. There's people that do good things, but the way we're born, each and every one of us still has things about us that pull us toward the bad. I think until the new system we will always fall into that middle-ground. I think the important thing is to keep striving to the best of our ability to be toward the good side rather than sliding solidly over into the bad.
"When I'm bored to death at home
When he won't pick up the phone
(I don't like spending a lot of time home alone. Sometimes I get bored but mostly just lonely. During times like that it is difficult when I reach out but people don't respond."
I've been feeling a lot of that lately. I haven't posted about it on FB because I didn't really want to put it publicly out there but there's been a lot going on in the congregation that's been discouraging. Most of the time I'm just home 'alone' and like you said I don't really want to feel sorry for myself, and that's probably part of why I've been throwing myself into doing the yard work and stuff. It's at least a temporary distraction from the choking sensation of how lonely I am.
"I'm so sick of wasting time
But nothing's moving in my mind
(I feel stifled by my thoughts sometimes. Still, I can't seem to overcome and move pass certain thoughts and thought processes and this is frustrating.)"
THIS. Is me right now and for the last couple months. >_< I hate it so much.
Anyway when I'm not at the library and can give it a listen I'd like to hear the song, I enjoyed reading what you had to say about it though.
Thanks for responding. I just now saw your comment. It's nice to know other people feel what I'm feeling or going through what I'm going through...I just wish that for both our sakes they could be more positive.
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