Lyrics

This is a beautiful song. I love the lyrics.

"In My Arms" by Plumb

Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your curly cues
Your contagious smile
And as i watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight

Knowing clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Story books are full of fairy tales
Of kings and queens and the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You'll someday see the truth from lies

Knowing clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
But you are never all alone
Because I will always
Always love you

Clouds will rage in
Storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

(Warning, this song made me cry the first couple times hearing it. It's just so beautiful)

Week 4

I've started just trying to do something creative each week. This week was pretty good. It's the 4th week of the month and I got quite a bit done. I went over to my parents house and used some of my mother's card making supplies to make these cards. I liked the way they turned out. I was joking that the one looked like a Valentine card but I think it would make a good anniversary card. I hope you enjoy my creations. :)

Depression

It's been a number of days since I did anything creative. Depression has given me days where I can't even get out of bed. I so wanted to do this 365 day creative project but I'm starting to see that it's a little out of reach for me. :(

Once again, depression wins a round. So I'm thinking I'll make an effort to do something creative every week. I think that's more attainable for me. I'll continue to post completed projects and update my blog.

Sorry people!

Day 10 of Creativity

I took two days off of doing something creative everyday. One day I was at a friend's house and didn't have everything with me that I needed to make something. The other day, I was a bit too depressed to do anything. =/

Anyway, these are pictures of me and Heather on our first Ferris Wheel ride. We rode this at a local carnival. It was a lot of fun but a little scary.

Friends

Working on this project, making a scrapbook of my close friends, has really made me think about the subject. It has made me wonder about friends that I've fell out of touch with over the years. It was never intentional but some how life went on and before I knew it, I hadn't spoken or written to a friend in years. This makes me sad when I think about it. I wonder if I tried to reach out to friends in the past if they'd welcome it. I think it's worth a try. Some of my old friends I don't even know where they are or how to get a hold of them. Any suggestions for how to find those ones again?
I've also thought about the friends that have remained over the years and those who I've just started being friends with. I cherish the friends I've had for so many years. I'm thankful they are still there and that I can still call them a close friend. I'm also so grateful for the new friends I've made in the last couple years. I hope the new friends stay. I look forward to getting to know them better.

Friends old and new, here and past...you've brightened my life! Thank you!

Day 8 & 9 of Creativity

I'm not entirely happy with the way this one turned out but the picture is a good one. Amber and I, have been friends since we were 13. We've been through a lot together. I couldn't ask for a better friend. :)

Lyrics

I find myself identifying with the lyrics of this song. I find the lyrics encouraging. The song is called: Maybe by The Sick Puppies
I don't know why someone would name their band that but oh well, it's a good song.

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm the only one
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
Maybe I should just give up
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change


Look up the song on YouTube and enjoy. It's better hearing it then just reading the lyrics. :D

Day 6 & 7 of Creativity

This one I had a hard time picking out a background for. In the end, I thought something simple and sweet suited the subject. :)

Cherie was my first sister-in-law. She is a very sweet and sincere person who also shares my love for dogs. :D

Day 5 of Creativity

I'm pretty happy with this page in my new scrapbook. Kathy has given me so many words of wisdom over the years I've known her that I thought the sticker very appropriate. Even though Frankie's eyes are glowing...this is still a great picture of Kathy. She has been a wonderful friend to me. I miss not being in the same congregation with her but I still get to see her. :)

Days 3&4 of Creativity

The past two days I've spent working on a new project. I'm making a cute little scrapbook of my friends. I spent my time on the 3rd day searching through photos that I already have printed. Today I worked on the cover and back of the book.

Now I have to go through my digital pictures and see if I have some photos of friends there. If I ask to take a picture of you in the next couple days...that's what it will probably be for.

Day 2 of Creativity

Today I went over to my parent's house in the evening. While I was there, my mother got out her card making supplies and we went to town! Here's a picture of one of the cards I made.

Today was a good day. :)

Today I started on my creative 365 day project. I worked on a scrapbook page. I'm not sure it's finished though so I'm not posting a picture yet. I loved this quote so I put it on the page:

"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful then the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin

I thought it such a beautiful thought.

I also spent the evening with my wonderful brother, Aaron.

I got a letter for Social Security telling me I have 2 appointments this month. One is a physical exam and the other is a mental exam. I'm nervous about them but they are another step closer to getting disability. Please pray that it goes well and I can get on disability. It would help me and Heather out tremendously. My depression has just gotten too bad for me to keep a stable job. :(

In my prayers...

I recently found out that one person I'm close to is now engaged and another started dating. I want only the best for all involved. Recent experiences have made me fearful. A beloved friend is getting divorced. I was there and signed her marriage license and now this is what has happened. I know that this doesn't happen to every couple but it is way too common. So to find some comfort and put things in Jehovah's hands, I find myself praying for the engaged couple as well as the dating couple. I want them to make the right decisions and it's not within my power to know if they are doing that. So I pray...and pray.

Maybe...I worry too much.

Embarking on a journey...

I wish to embark on a creative journey. I plan to do something creative every day. I want to challenge my creativity by trying new avenues to express myself. This will also allow me to improve on the outlets I already find joy in. I want to spend time scrapbooking, writing, sewing, painting, drawing, etc. I may or may not blog about every day. I think I'll combine some days so I won't bore anyone with daily posts. I'm looking forward to this year and the projects it will inspire.

Something Creative...

Seeing Heather take on the challenge of taking a picture everyday makes me want to do something similar. I don't want to be taking pictures everyday since that would probably leave us fighting over the camera but I want to challenge myself creatively. Anyone have some ideas of what I could do?

Lyrics

Music plays such a big part of my life. It helps describe how I'm feeling and gives and outlet for thoughts that can otherwise not be expressed. I often find I have "theme songs" during different times in my life. Sometimes it's a situation I'm in and other times it is a repetitive feeling that I have.
I deal with chronic and major depression so a lot of my feelings are dark. This means that a good deal of the music I listen to deals with depression and the struggle I face. I've been very depressed today and so these lyrics really express how I've been feeling:

"Keep Breathing" by Ingrid Michaelson

The storm is coming but I don't mind
People are dying, I close my blinds

All that I know is I'm breathing now

I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now